I’ve been saving this blog for a special time. That time has come. So, why now? Part of the New Year, New Me.
You know my story. I would love for you to read my previous blogs or reach out to me, I would love to tell you. After we began to get settled into our new life, the feeling of missing my family and friends became all too real. When you are running around trying to accomplish “life”, you get so busy that you don’t even have time to feel or soak in what’s really going on with your heart, soul, and mind.
Yeah. The day came when there was no more running around and reality sets in. 6 hours away from everyone and everything you’ve ever known. Our family of four in a town that we didn’t know a soul.
I recently back in August had a conversation with one of my close friends about how I was settling up here in this holler. One thing I love about this girl is that I can just tell her how I really feel and it’s okay to feel how I feel. Well, I did just that. Honestly, I felt like I was betraying people in my life by creating a new life. I felt guilty. I finally realized that was silly. What she said to me really hit home. She said, “Hannah, it’s okay to have Roots and Wings!”
I have thought about it for a few months because I have been struggling with accepting that my old life is a closed chapter. Sure, my friends are still my friends and my family is still my family but I have to accept it for myself. Most importantly for God and His divine purpose for calling us here. Somehow I had to find the balance between the old and the new. Since I lived in the same place for 30 years, it proved to be much harder than I expected. Somehow by the grace of God, I came to a wonderful conclusion.
I have roots – the most colorful set of roots you will find aka my family, my friends and every experience and every revelation I have ever had to shape me into who I am. The person who I am becoming. I’ve fought hard to get here. The road has been long and it has been a struggle but there is still a greater purpose. I want to be the person God moved to this holler to be and I want to live for Him. I’m finally ready for my wings.
Perhaps you are still growing in your roots and becoming who you were called to be for the next season of your life. One day you will have your wings and you will fly into greater things. Always have faith and in thanksgiving thank Him for the good, bad and ugly. They make the roots even more colorful and when those wings spread, it will be freeing.